It is no surprise that these two are so closely intertwined.I have written these sins in black ink upon linen paper. These sins marked deep in the grooves of my heart. And I have burned the vestiges of these wrongs – sending their ash to the heavens, to the Only One who can make each one right. The One who Restores what has been lost. The One who Redeems what has been Stolen. The One who conquers the ground given to the enemy.
These two, forgiveness and repentance, have to come before worship. It is as Jesus said, “Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar, and there remember that your brother or sister has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to them; then come and offer your gift.” [Matthew5:23-24]And it is worship to which my soul has longed to return. That for which I, and you, dear one, have been created:
Worship of the One, True God.And I have committed my heart to worship. Not to singing and clapping and dancing as though joy were the only emotion I know. But to worship – to be delighted and afraid of the God who gives birth to stars with merely a breath. To be in awe and wonder of the God who numbers the days of my life, and those whom I love. To love and revere the God who loves every person, though this love is rarely returned, and is never perfected while we toil on this barren rock.
I have purposed my mind to knowing the God of all Creation. That includes knowing of Him, knowing about Him, and seeking after Him as earnestly as I can. For Theology is worship, as is music. And Ontology can cause a heart to dance, as wondrously as a song.I have set out to follow after the desire of my heart, no longer the confines of humanity. I will not allow these bent children, though of Light themselves, to dictate what is and what is not worship. That which draws me to my God, makes Him known to me, makes me humbled before Him, is what I will declare as my worship. If my heart is not light, I will not clap my hands. If my eyes will not weep, I will shout with joy that His love fills my soul.
I will remember that God finds us where we stand. He leaves the 99 to seek after the 1. And I, and you, beloved, am the 1. God meets us wherever we are. And He loves us however we are – for while we were still sinners, God sent His Only Son to die for our sins, that we might be called the children of God. [Romans 5:8]
Join me, children of God. Join me in worshipping our God. His is the Name above all names. He is the King of kings and Lord of lords. He is the alpha and the omega; the Author of our lives and the Creator of the universe. And we were created to worship Him.Wherever you are, however you choose, worship the God you made you, the God who saves you, the God who, in spite of you, loves you.
For the Glory of His Kingdom.